The bottom Line

Believe it or not, while a friend you've thought of in only the most strictly platonic of ways has done their very best to keep things that way ... well, that natural sexuality that oozes out of your every pore doesn't make it easy to do. They may be gearing up to make that announcement now, but if you aren't ready to hear it, for whatever reason, do what you do best -- that skillful sidestep.


Oooh, this is interesting.... :-)

on a birthday break

breaking off the bliogging for now, gonna enjoy my birthday week. cheerios! :-)

*blows candle, eats cake* yum!

birthday gift

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Got this lovely scarf in the mail today --- a wonderful present from Grandma Margaret and Grandpa Jim! Home made and very warm and fuzzy, it's just too sweet!!! :-) Thanks for remembering my birthday!!! *kisses and hugs*

lost in transition

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roaming the streets of LA....

freelancing blahs

During my stint as a "freelancer", i realized a sad reality: you're only as good as your networking skills. As much as i hate to admit it, one cannot freely express one's self and make a profit unless one is exposed and (argh) connected to those who have the money and the ability to make things happen. (Oh god, my jaded personality is kicking in!)

Perhaps i still hold on to an idealism that with true talent, you can make it to the top. Expose your work, and as they say, they will come. *sigh* I guess networking prods it a little more... then again, it makes me question everything: how far can you take it and "network" without truly selling out? :-P

the future?

this makes me question if i should go with my plans for an MA in SF or not....

while this makes me think twice about staying in RP.

Hmmm.

a lesson from the gals...

Sex and the City Love Lessons

1) Lesson 1 - You are not easily not forgotten. Let him find you when HE'S READY. The message - Don't make excuses for man's bad behavior.

2) Any guy who dumps you wasn't good enough for you. The message - It's not your fault if a guy doesn't like you.

3) Life is hard enough without sharing it with someone difficult. The message - No matter how much a guy spoils you he still needs to be kind to you and share things with you.

4) You deserve to be with someone who gives you his best and is nice to you all the time. The message - Harry never made Charlotte doubt his love. The man should always try to give you his best and never give you reasons to doubt.

5) When a man says he can't be monogamous, believe him. The message - He's just not that into you if he's cheating on you.

6) There is a guy out there who wants to marry you. The message - A lot of women say, " The guys I like never like me." What about the guy that does like you????

7) No matter how hard your heart is aching over a broken heart you can always count on your friends to be there for you.

8) ALWAYS BE OPEN TO UNEXPECTED POSSIBILITIES.


P.S. Its from this week's current issue of US Weekly! I hope all you ladies get a lesson or two on love. Although realism is good to always have it doesn't hurt to be OPTIMISTIC sometimes =)

it's raining in LA???

Just when i thought things couldn't get any worse...

it rains.

Not only did this make the day colder, gloomier and more,well, depressing, i can't get out. (then again, i have no money to really go around anywa, but that's besides the point...)

Yeuch. (make face)

What's worse about getting stuck at home with nothing to do? Getting stuck at home with nothing to eat. ...sigh. I wanted to make pancakes from scratch to cheer me up, but the milk was old (Eeeow!!!) and stinky. I wnated to make sandwiches, but the bread was gone. Sigh. Settled for yogurt and dried fruit (uh, yummmy... i guess) Now all i can think about is pigging out on some good ol' Papa John's Pizza....

me and jackie

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yet another shot of me and my fab "sister" --- this was taken while havin' dinner @ Islands by Seal Beach.

sunday bloody sunday

i realized that yes, the weather is definitely getting cold-ER. I actually am scared of heading to the east coast now that i have had the taste of what 60 degrees felt like... brrr!

i need some warmth....dammit.

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Confound it! my 6flags plan was shattered with the "disappearance" of my cousin. *sigh* Settled for a movie with my other cousin, Ricky instead. The weather was bad anyway---scattered rain, cloudy skies, 20 degrees lower than usual. Well, at least the movie was funny --- Wallace and Gromit was pretty witty and quite entertaining, especially since they intersperesed a lot of adult humor into the details (imagine a stark naked Wallace holding a box to cover himself that read " contains nuts").

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on vacation

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got this from postsecret.com --- quite befitting, don'tcha think? :-P

Life is one long self-help book

Consider the possibilities: how many times can one receive a self-help chain e-mail? I got this about three times this week (is this a weekly special or what?) Anyhoo, sarcasm aside, this actually made some sense to my system and so i shall (in lieu of forwarding AGAIN) post this up for all you people to read and ponder on:

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you..
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
4.. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around
12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.


REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

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Ironically, i, along with some friends, have been mulling over the same thoughts and related scenarios for the past few weeks and it's funny how these folks also got this email from someone they know (hahaha, call it divine intervention, perhaps?) Ahhh, life and its surprises! :-P

the good times are killing me... (Modest Mouse)

Lately the emotional rollercoaster that has been coursing through me is steadily slowing down --- why is that, i wonder? These past few days have launched me into a new panic attack, wherein i ask myself, Why the fuck is this all happening!?!!! Then again, that's just me...

Take for example, my saturday: My friends and i were at Melros Avenue checking out Crossroads and the other local "vintage" and secondhand stores around the area. We parked by the store itself and since it was early, decided to splurge on a smoothie (i mean splurge because the prices skyrocket along these areas, like, $5 for a smoothie!!?!!)

Anyhoo, we were hanging out the shop when a couple of cop cars pass by, their sirens whirling like mad. Next thing we know, two bomb squad cars passby. Thinking it was a movie being shot, we didn't take much note of it... until they started closing off an entire block of the street --- specifically, the block where we parked our car.

Yep, complete with flares, yellow ribbons and a dozen or so cops redirecting traffic, we got from the nice guy in blue that an unidentified package was left in the store across Crossroads and was being analyzed by the bomb squad as he spoke. People were in a near-panic mode as they anxiously waited for an explosion.

Now, this would have been really freakish had it not been the fact that this was in Hollywood. I think being in this specific setting made me less freaked out about it because, well, i keep expecting the cameras to appear and somebody to say "cut!" anytime soon. Alas, it was real, as they made us wait for about an hour and a half for them to safely say, "it's not a bomb, people!".

Hmmm. At least my saturday was quite interesting... and yes, i did what any normal tourist would do --- take pictures :-P

The so-called personality test

Your #1 Match: ESFP

The Performer You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others. A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic. You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally. You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic. You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

Your #2 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #3 Match: ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

Your #4 Match: ISFP

The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

Your #5 Match: ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

What's Your Personality Type?

peace, y'all!

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Hangin' with Carlo and Kimmy for the weekend! We went to watch CORPSE BRIDE at Universal Cinemas and pretty much hung out at their place in Glendale. Nakakmiss ang Blueridge gang! Wish you were here, jays! :-)

adieu Multiply

So my Multiply account is officially dead.


Alas, with all unexplained things in this world, including the Bermuda Triangle and The Yeti, it's gone... whoever pulled it out, well, that's your thing. Karma will deal with you.

Oh well. All things have their own twisted way of coming back.

So anyway, i've started a replacement blog for travel accounts here

revisiting SATC

Things have been quite "non-interesting" these days that i feel stuck. I don't really know what causes this uneasiness in me, but i was feeling that "funk", that weird inner cringe and i didn't know what to do about it. In need of some "woman talk" and all the positivism only the female sex can provide, I turn to viewing old episodes of SATC.

Sex and the City gave most women felt empowerment with the brazen and frank way Carrie and her girflriends approached the topic of sex, love and relationships. For me, it was the embodiment of what i wanted to feel --- safe and secure in my own sexuality, confident enough to move on without thinking too much about it, or regretting it. I secretly wanted to be a cool mix of Carrie's fashion chic, Samantha's devil-may-care attitude, Charlotte's naive yet romantic soul and Miranda's intellect.

Ahhh, tv. What you cannot have in real life, they put in stereotypes in shows.

Regardless of this, SATC gave me some pretty interesting insight on such subjects, and weird as it may seem, there were things that actually made sense (see previous posts re: SATC).

I wish life can be as easily read like these episodes. More to the point, i wish life will always have a happy ending, like they do (after all, Carrie got Mr. Big, didn't she?)

i got tagged!

WALA LANG: 20 People You Can Think Of Right Off Your Head
*these people aren't listed in any particular order...
so dont feel bad if you're number 20, or if you're not on the list at all*

01. Kitty
02. Mary
03. Jac
04. Jason
05. Melvin
06. Melissa
07. River
08. Jackie
09. Hectril
10. April
11. Abie
12. Justin
13. Haydee
14. Jasonic
15. Ann
16. Hazel
17. Pika
18. Roel
19. Mitzy
20. Ricky

How did you meet ..13?
>> in high school, through classroom assignments

What do you honestly think of 10?
>> my mom is really cool :-)

Have you ever liked 3?
>> Yeah, cos she's a strong woman :-)

Would 11 and 2 make a good couple?
>> nah, they're better off friends :-P

Do you think 12 is hot?
>> hehehe, i'd be biased he's my cuzin!

Who is 8 going out with?
>> her boyfriend

Is 9 a boy or a girl?
>> a boy.

When was the last time you talked to 5?
>> a couple of weeks back :-)

What is 1's favorite band?
>> nirvana --- ganun pa rin ba kits?

Does 2 have any siblings?
>>yeah, she's the youngest of five kids, i think...

Would you ever date 6?
>> yeah, if i was a lesbian... but since i'm not, girls night out na lang!

Would you ever date 7?
>> yup, on girls nights out!

Is 15 single?
>> nope

What is 19s last name?
>> Dorland

What does 17 look like?
>> the hottest momma in da hood!

What is 10's fantasy?
>> i dunno, and it's too weird ot ask my mom that!

Would 14 and 19 ever get together?
>> i dont think so...

What school does 16 go to?
>> UP FA - grad na sya.

What school does 1 go to?
>> UP CFA- grad na sya.

Where does 9 live?
>> at home

Would you make out with 13?
>> LOL --- i dont think so!

Are 5 and 6 best friends?
>> they dont know each other

Is 20 older than you?
>> nope, younger

Is 18 the sexiest person alive?
>> ob cors! :-) naks, roo, yung sweldo ko ha! ;-)

* tagging all them readers!!!

postcard series

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Been bored and pretty much trying to rant out through random artworks... whaddya think?

Ahhh...boredom can do much for a depressed gal...

missing

i find the most unlikely form of comfort from a letter.

Thank you for your kind words of wisdom, and strangely, though i never really said anything specific, you seemed to know what i was hinting at. You make my day a lot better with your hopeful outlook in life...


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I think missing someone is the worst kind of torture one can inflict on one's self.

This feels like a repeat of Sex and the City's "The Exquisite Pain" episode.

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makes you think....

A relationship offers a chance for you to be reborn -- if you want a new identity.

You thought you were done with hearing the confessions of your friends, since you've let them all know that you really can't be surprised at this point. Suddenly, however, someone has called to mention something they're feeling rather guilty about -- and now that you know, you're going to feel guilty about it, too. Your only option is to trust your instinct, which has only let you down when you haven't listened.


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Argh. My hormonal changes are f*cking up my intuition. Somebody help...

f*ckit

I promised myself it wouldn't be about you. I promised myself i'll protect my heart. I promised myself that if anything should happen, it will be because i wanted it to happen.

It took one call for my defenses to break down.

I don't want to explain myself to you anymore. You know how i feel about you. You know how all i want is to spend time with you. I understand the situation. I understand how things changed. Silly me. I forget that love does not conquer everything, it complicates it.

I want to be there for you. I want to be with you.

That's all there is to it for me.

And men say women are complicated... :-P

Hoo-boy....

The Bottom Line
Decisions teach us about ourselves. Remember your priorities, and this'll be easy.

In Detail
You were probably quite irritated with someone who deceived you recently, and remnants of those feelings could be hanging over your heart right now. If it's a friend who's responsible, you can make peace, but not until later tonight, after you've had the chance to do some detective work to prove to yourself that you're right to help. In the meantime, you'll have to endure at least one more conversation with the same person over the same issue before it's over. Oh, you can do it. You're tough.


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Yeah, right. Now all i have to figure out what my priorities really are...

Surreal world

After a not-so-interesting day i got a call from Dave, a fellow kababayan (he hails from the same province) and a nearby resident, who, as his voice hinted, was depressed as a depressed guy could be.

Girl trouble? thank goodness,no! I've had enough in my mind as it is to entertain troubles of the heart... :-P

Anyhoo, we schedule a "kapehan session" (a.k.a coffee and yosi) that night to talk about whatever's been bugging him. Turns out, his client boots him from a project he was so hoping to get for that evening. In the friday buzz of Cerritos' Starbucks, we digressed the WTF's of corporate America, living the American dream (not necessarily living it tho) and all the "what-the-hell-happened-to... " connections we had in the province.

Kewlness, fate hits him bigtime after a few hours or so... the client who ditched him earlier calls him up telling him to head out to the gig to take pics, ASAP. What do we do? He brings me home to change outfits, and we speed through the 710 to catch the gig.

Ahh, fate does have a twisted sense of humor....the 710 gets packed, apparently from road work caution (they blocked two lanes) ---not only that, we were low in gas, and have a possible chance of getting stranded in the freeway should we end up using it all. So the journey takes a detour into downtown LA in search of a gas station...again, where is a gas station when you need it!?!!

We finally find one, in the heart of a nearby suburb --- ahh, the gringos, the festive signs, the dark alleys nearby... the gas was cheap, but the place gave me goosebumps :-P We head up to Glendale where, while listening to The Killers, we missed the turn, leading us to a roundabout into the next exit.

At last we end up at the bar, where Dave pretty much goes around and do his "paparazzi" thing, while i mingle with the fil-ams, nodding to the beat and taking it all in. The scene was pretty happening, though it does give you a nostagic feel of Makati in the weekend (kinda like Mbassy or Il Ponti)..though i could do with all the "baduy" pick-up lines (that's what you get when you're a lone female without a posse of gals) from them kids. Got to hang with some fun, booze-lovin' kids who were living it up and takin pictures of everybody. Kudos to them folks --- Melissa, Angela and Ryan, as well as Sato! :-) They were pretty kewl... The booze was pretty expensive, but hey, it's better to be sober than drunk at these times :-P

The party was pretty happenin', a pretty fun way to spend a friday night... what began as a typical night turned out to be something quite...well, surreal :-)

driving lessons

Hard to believe, but i haven't had a driver's license since...forever. i never really thought much about it growing up. Suffice to say that while most kids growing up would dream of what car they would want to own, i was too busy thinking of other things.

My friends (well, most of them anyay) have their own cars now, and they prefer that to commuting, but really, who would want to drive in Manila? The chaos, the EDSA traffic, the bad officers, the expensive parking, the "guidelines" that are the traffic laws....who would want to?

Fast forward to the present: in LA, it is -- gasp!--- scandalous to not have your own car. Worse, it is almost as serious as having done a crime not to have a driver's license (well, in most circles anyway). Here, people expect you to drive, if not own a vehicle, and as most job requirements, you need to have your own transportation. So here i am, without knowledge or experience whatsoever in that field, readily commuting to brave through big, bad LA. People say i am commiting social suicide.

*sigh* In retrospect, i have to agree that to a certain degree they are right. After all, i am turning a year older soon, and well, i guess there just comes a time that you have to do the inevitable....

So i took the written driving exam yesterday. Big whooo-pee.

i have to admit, going through those lines, writing all the necessary paperwork, and pretty much answering those questions left me unsettled. All this for a measly piece of identification card? Hmmm.... it felt like forever, but finally i was done.

i passed.

Ok, admittedly, it felt good.

Now all i have to do is take one more test and i'm well... conformed to society.

Wish me luck :-P